Where to start....

You know I don't even know where to start. My life here lately hasn't been the best. I stayed up lastnight crying & this morning wondering what on earth I'm doing with my life. If any of my problems will ever be over with. When something happens in my life it's not just one problem that comes at me it's lots of problems. When it Rains it Pours. It's things going on in my house. Things with myself & things with a certain friend who won't let me help them out. I feel useless. and most of all I feel unloved. I've actually been like this for awhile. You know my friend was the one that I could always turn to, but I can't at the moment they are dealing with their own problems. I try & help them out to avoid my own problems, but they don't want my help or advice that's never happened between us. There has been a lot of changes going on in my life, & i'm not use to change I hate change. It's very hard for me.